Liberating Love

Confined in strange emotions

Let me call it love...

An amalgamation in the beginning..

Not aesthetic, as it resonates

Neither fierce nor fragile

And ruins you beyond imagination..

From hub to ibadat, the transitions...

Carried over for years.

Bound deeper!

Ishq is an intense flame..

Desired to ache..lovers!!

Sparkled through oneness!

Until I cease to be you...

Finally, yearning for freedom. 

To liberate me from us..  

Living secrets of words and pain...

Reckoning the lost oblivion.

Puzzle of 90s

Going nowhere but back home, 

Swinging to your thirties

You romanticize life with peace 

To find a meaning, 

In a city you never belong,

You invest in every vantage point...

Mistakenly identify the reasons

Consistently fitting into 

Puzzle of the modern realm, 

But living in the 90s at heart

When love was aesthetic…

With the art of waiting...

For letters and postcards!

Writing with ink that erases

Agonies and often regrets...

Broadest beauty of belongingness!

AS A SUNFLOWER

The shaded glass tints 

Concealed, not camouflaged

Brave enough to confront the lost...

Diligently wiping off the vestiges

Unraveling all the pain around me 

To imbibe the truth...

The path is futile, recluse!

Somewhere we are meant to leave...

Dwindled into the molecules 

Until the universe devours

Breathless, I bloom again as a sunflower!

But I’m not your lover anymore.

Chasing after you for the light to shine.

I will be utterly empty. 

To cast life in the emptiness. 

Battle to stay alive

 

Stretching the limits

to choke off my heart.

to the devil that awaits within!

Battle with the soul

to stay alive and live in

a city that disguises itself...

Hiding reality

in the tallest structures...

lost and lonely!

Walking in the mellow lights...

I often find life in remains. 

reciprocating the sky with dreams!

It’s not the end.

I will find you again.

to hold and console you!

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Poetry of a City

 

poetry in disguise of a city! 

In its finely chiselled memories, 

we live…. for love…. 

is it toxic or an elixir?? 

a poison that kills! 

stronger than my cigars and vodka!! 

it’s the non-existent freedom that ties us 

to the shackled love!!

the discourse in silence 

connecting disconnected….

far beyond my heart

alone in the crowd...

I endure for the reasons that I hold on to…

But what stops you?? 

Enticing you to death

To escape the truth harder than you expect 

beyond it goes

Trying  to find out 

Who am I??

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Love- ripped and revealed

 Lately, I’m turning to leap...

To the rainbows, I have been searching for

Love isn’t fallen into...

It is ripped and revealed...

To find your ego and learn who you’re

As a naked soul…

Searching the darkest fears

In that space, you turn to be more stronger. 

To stand for you..

Voicing freedom along

Being the real shadow you carry

More broadly…to enjoy. 

With wine and lover, you shape to swirl

Blending sophisticated,

Failing to evoke the flavour you expected!

But tuning to the fragile nuances 

That eyes can never see!

Nurtured by time…

You grow to let go..

Time

 

departures were always easy….

till the darkness of death

waiting beside the road

quiescent and lone

’m still searching for a home,

in every place I go

nothing brings back the warmth of love

no one really….

filled up my wholeness.

I pushed myself outside my room once

to the world, I travel

But this is tiring! 

yearning for a soul

to be loved….over the love….

death or survival

only the shadows be along,

alas! the story ends here. 

wish it was more easier 

this time!!

Flames of Rumi and Tabrizi

the Rumi and Tabrizi...

the eternal flames of love 

burned down to carry earth to heaven

is it the search for life within

seeking the truth of ashq

energy to transform pain into

healing through the love residing inside…

I, an urban soul

wanders as a Dervish to the 

eternal passions of life…

chiseling out what I lost

to the existence…!! 

once more, let me whirl in Sama

through the verses of  Rumi…

travelling to the universe 

reflecting the divinity

echoing the goodness 

finding nothingness

in divine Sufi heart!

WHOLENESS

 Truthfully yours,

Feel the pain. Feel it. Inhale!!! To the deeper crest of your soul.

Imbibe. Not for a second. But FEEL it. Wrap it with your mixed emotions. Frustrations. agonies

It may hurt you. Pierce the core... yeah!! You can't wait to see the inner you reflected in pain...!!! But the Inner you be...way more healed than you imagine.

Hey Human beings, your stimuli spoiled you. You break you. you either of them, the replica of collective consciousness...or own self...without real clear realizations.

Really there exist power to your love. your life. your voice. your actions.

Understand and heal.

Sprout the tiny fraction of the day.

Learn What. Where. When and Whom.... !!!!

BE HUMAN.

YOU ARE PART OF THE WHOLE.

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POSSESSION

From the ancient history of time,

human beings have been fighting for human beings.
For some reason..., for love, for attention, for care, whatever!!
Possession is a strong word.
.
We possess certain relationships, certain objects, and certain ideas close to us, which may be out of our interest...
and we want it like that.
like parents' possession of their "products"...out of love;
they offer a prison of secured life.
one day, if u break it..you will know what's life. what's the world. What's a failure. what's humanity. and what's emotions.
then you will stand up for yourself. to choose what you want...what makes you happy...what makes you feel low...; facing loneliness... fighting... over and over again with hope and belief.
Out of the cocoon, you will sprout to experience. to experiment. to realize. to travel. to know and to live.
Let it go and move forward.

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Graveyard of Words

Lie to the happiness.

Hide in your Glass House.

Never resurrect, Old broken soul.

Sunflower, you aren't you...

All shine through...

Darkness, you aren't any enemy...

Last night, I slept on your lap 

with the touches of your spirit. 

2:45, you did so much. 

I lost it. But you hold on to me...

In the purple bones...,

between the spine..,

Blossom the lilacs; 

To an eternity.....

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Autumn Drizzle

Understanding each other in imperfections.
Like a painting, hues may vary. Tints may be abstract. But there is beauty. Aesthetic touch of you on me...which arouses the intense sensations within.
Every time you approach me with your magnetic eyes and magical spell on your touch, you enslave me.
Be my lust on every starry night.
Be my sunflower on every dawn.

Be my Prussian cumulus every twilight!!!

Traveling to endless roads and infinite destinations.
We love, love, seduce.
We sink in. Deeper.
Flowing....as autumn leaves in the brook...!!! Floating...as high kites in the sky...!!!.
Thorn
often hurts...
Bleeding the fiery red whims....!!!!
the in-between of me and you.
Mine and yours.
Past!!! Shhh,!! You're burned.
You're buried...

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Hey Mr. Yesterday.....

Roads become a getaway to those heavens made on this earth....!!!
Dusted, often misdirected to unknown paths...!!! overtime, it sparkles with its magic.
Drive us to be apart from the world...
To touch adventures ....
In its finely chiseled memories,
We live...;
To the diverse array of roads...
In front, of those nomads...without destinations...!!! Timed to coincide with untold impulses...!!
Within we stroll, to the cloudy cities... wild mountains and turquoise beaches ..!!
Hey Mr. Yesterday...take me back...
With time...days, collided between us to its reveries...
Night, drunken together among stars...high conversations..!!!
Through darkened street...!!!.
To touch 3:00 am...delicacy....!!

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MILLION BLUES

Sink in with you.
Deepest.
Chaotic palette ignites...;

I plunged into an untamed....
Cast the tonal Prussian upon thy....!!!
Tinged blood flooded.....
With million blues..!!!!!

Azure cloud imbued agony.
Ruins of thy portrayal...!!!
Deceased...!!!
Doomed to solace.

Clasped reminisces,
Buried within...!!!!
Now, revived in thou touch!!!
I, death, a selfish witch...
Wrenched from your coffin.

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Faceless

We build homes within
With every hard stone ....
Not that delicate pebble...deserted!!!! With every stroke,
I may rewrite the Faces..faceless...
Not the words they spoke
Not the deeds they acted
Alas!! Ached !! Often broken.
I reminisce, forgotten....
Snippet of loses
Too deep...Too vast
Reverie of shallows.
Fly to death!!
Path to revelation.....!!!!
Confront them!!!
But never conflict...
The rivalry of yourself with mine.
Farewell to your space!!!

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Slow....Solitude

Days..
When I used to stay under a blanket till nine 
And wake up late just to miss classes.
And go... 
Step outside
Roam around. 
Goto sea...
Or else to stroll alone
To some dusty, old 
Unknown streets with unknown people...
Watching the sky 
Listening to stories with strangers..
Laughing hard with them.
Often in rush, also slow...
In the silence of that city..
Autograph of solitary days 
Still has its echoes of love and pain.
That was days..
When I stay under a blanket till nine 
And wake up late just to miss classes.
And go... 
Step outside
Roam around. 
Goto sea...
Sometimes to my fav restaurant 
Or else to stroll alone
To some dusty, old 
Unknown streets with unknown people...
Watching the sky 
Listening to stories with strangers..
Laughing hard with them.
Often in rush, also slow...
In the silence of that city..
Autograph of solitary days 
Still has its echoes of love and pain.

Her Glass Verse

Push her into loneliness. 
Her addiction.....
That has never left her...!!!!! 
And then she won't return to you.
Nor would let you into her world.
Once, life...in chaos...
She blinded herself 
With Words..Hues...in silence. 
But she triumphed it with you..
Out of the flame that burnt her.
She emerged..
To walk with you.
Now again into the abyss,
She may....
Love the sole darkness..!!! 

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November Rendezvous

Three years...ended 
A November Magic.
Shrooms Euphoria
Words silenced the universe,
And tripped with my soul!!!
Hold those glances..
At eventide, we wandered 
To the end of the world..
An altar of shadows.
Bowed to eclipsed poetry.
Synchronize...
Connected with me 
In a lost part of the moon!! 
Illuminate the entangled self.
Ears to revelatory tales.
Under your footprints 
I unshackle fears.
Wanders.
To fight, defeat, and love.
As I manifest you, within you!!
Jinn !!!!

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PHANTASMAGORIA

Tears clouded in misery..
Those eyes 
Intensely wounded with love...
Thoughts are tinted..
For the departed..!!
I confronted time frontiers...
To stroll on a deserted chasm...
Reflections, more blurred.
Out of the stars into the Universe..
I evanesce 
It isn't tangible for you...
You're not where I belong to...

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Blue Signature

Set aside the leftovers...

The reason that you uphold

In your darkness 

You're alone 

But it's not the end...

Frozen...!!!

You may sink into life...

With the whims of decadence.......

Under the fragile ice cubes

Hidden...!!!

the Final praises of molecules...;

Atoms die with love..

For your soul...

It's deeper in Prussian 

Not an unfathomable teal 

It remains ....!!!

Voices unheard beyond those words

Written with stars

On the crystal night skies...

Where I remain old and cold

Searching that verse...

Far way ......

Harder and shallow...

In the delusion of Ghosts...

Memories I buried

In the graveyard of Moon....

Of that nightmares....

Sleeping under your unseen phase...

Secrets...you kill....

Dreams...you murders...

With your own life...

Scars of beauty..

Coral lipstick in your crimsonness

You stand up 

Tall, hence strong....

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Deracinated

When the whole world turns up against you and you find yourself sinking in the crowd indifferent to you… believing that it's not the life that you ultimately gonna cherish…
Then drop everything and goes to the place where u feel you can find the right answer.

I was rooted somewhere here.., I return..

Now, I grub out of a space I have always been back to

yeah!!! years transformed me 

and often altered my inner self..

from kinda thoughts, words, attitude, and more over my wholeness.

here, I'm leaving without any people from this city.

just MEMORIES.

I gained no one from here and I never regretted it.

 Deracinated  

To bravely walk out of...
It was never the same again.
I shed and shattered...

I call it all a parcel I always cherish upon...

Days of happiness.
Days of Experience.
Realization.

I'm never a writer...nor poet...nor artist.

But...

as you, you, and you

As a human being, I learned to grow 
when I fall but kept myself the hope of progression.

PREJUDICED.

OFTEN REJECTED.

Even today...I was unaccompanied.

But...

even if you left me with none...

I will SURVIVE.

we live to survive.

...MOTIVATION IS FREE OF COST.
a world filled with speakers, coaches, trainers, developers....

so beware of it.

Be unknown and explore.

BOOKS... KEEP 'EM AND CARRY 'EM.

Now look up at
 SKY..STARS..CLOUDS..BIRDS...TRESS..FLOWERS..MOON..SUN..AND MUCH MORE ABOVE YOUR ROOM WALLS..
Fear makes you strong.
Make a change when you think you wanted to.
No longer, just the soul remains and what you do with your body goes to the parasites that habitat in your graveyard. 
So keep your soul away from regrets, guilt, and hatred.

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Universally Stuck

I have been dreaming to make a move in my life...

yeah !! I know it often stops me somewhere that I do not want to do it. But it's not what I wanted in my life, I know you have even more dreams to explore but that's what really makes the difference................

It's been a while,
 I pulled myself from doing what I love, there were possibilities to overcome and overgo but I haven't...I'm stuck in my own hell and my conscience often drags me to the inner demons I fight with...

Basically, I'm not depressed because I have seen people who are..., I'm blessed then....!!!

still my 'that life' is not here......yeah....' dream land' it seems, the ultimate happiness what spirituality calls, 'HAPPINESS' of life...

And I say it's not that far far far land somewhere...

it's what we make with our own life...with circumstances we create...

Moving out of our own comfort zone...That will power to make a MOVE in life...

That SPARK to move out.....

It's not traveling to Kasi or Jerusalem or Mecca but finding the LIFE...

it comes...Existentialism often we call it...

but okay WAIT....it will...Happen...!! if you're willing to get ready and accept what Universe gives...